Showing posts with label Worry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Worry. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

What is Yoga? Yoga Sutra 1.1: “I will now review for you how we become whole”


What is Yoga?




Yoga Sutra 1.1: “I will now review for you how we become whole



Zuri Learns About Yoga

Anyone who knows Zuri knows that she experiences a lot of anxiety. She comes by it honestly. It is, a big part of it anyway, genetic. She doesn’t know her dad too well, yet she remembers his anxiety. He was, and still is; always nervous about what other people might think and how he looks in social situations. Her mom is a nervous wreck for sure. Zuri suspects that it is the anxiety that leads to her mom’s drinking. Her mom says that it “calms her nerves.” It seems to. When Zuri’s mom gets home from work she starts drinking her wine. She says, “Ah, my wine.” Zuri notices that it funny that the other liquids in her house are not quite as close to Zuri’s mom as her wine. It is not, “my water” or "my milk.” In those cases it is “water” and “milk.” But with wine, it is sort of like her mom is saying, “my medicine.” Zuri is pretty sure that the medicine is for her anxiety, for her stress.

Zuri loves her mom a lot. In many ways she wants to be just like her—caring, loving, and generous. Still, she doesn’t want to end up needing to drink alcohol to feel better. She sees her mom when she is hung over. She sees her mom not be able to speak clearly. She sees her mom not getting up for work. She sees her mom letting people down. She sees her mom making promises she doesn’t  keep (that one is super personal for Zuri and it hurts). She sees all that. She doesn’t want it. And she also wants to feel less anxious. Zuri wants the thinking and thinking that goes on in her mind to stop or at least settle down.

Homework done and she is lying awake, Zuri decides to start reading one of the books from the yoga bag. The advertisements on the sides of mattress trucks have yoga people on them. They seem so peaceful. This stuff might have something to it-- she hopes. She decides to choose a book and read the whole thing from cover to cover. She reaches in and digs for a skinny book (yeah, if you are going to commit to a whole book make it manageable). She chooses one that won’t take too long to read. She finds, “The Essential Yoga Sutra: Ancient Wisdom for Your Yoga” by Geshe Michael Roach and Christie McNally (Three Leaves Press, Doubleday, NY; 2005).

She reads about Patanjali and about sutras. She learns that a sutra is the very essence of something, the thread that holds it together, defines it. She reads that the authors believe that the Yoga Sutra is the “Mother book of all yoga” (Roach & McNally, 2005; first page, Ch. 1). She reads that the real author of this book, Patanjali, was a master yogi that knew all of the physical poses, meditated, and reflected on life, the world, and meaning. She reads that Patanjali had mastered his mind. She reflects, “Ah, I bet he felt so strong.” She reads that yoga has many meanings and in its essence is union. Roach and McNally (2005) tell Zuri about inner winds. She thinks they might mean her spirit, her passions, and her fears. They explain to her that when she thinks and understands, when she practices yoga, these winds unite allowing her to follow her dreams. Zuri loves the idea of this.

She reads Sutra 1.1, “I will now review for you how we become whole.” Roach and McNally, (2005) have studied many ancient texts to translate Patanjali’s words for Zuri. She knows that as she reads it is like reading the words of Patanjali. Below this first sutra, Roach and McNally explain what Patanjali means here. They explain that another meaning of yoga is “to become whole.” What they say is huge. Very huge. They explain that becoming whole happens when you are capable of helping others and when you know what really matters. They tell Zuri that Patanjali was so humble that he uses the word, “review” as he shares the wisdom of the ancient yogis for us. They explain that in his humble nature, he reviews this great knowledge for us. She thinks that this is as generous as Roach and McNally (2005) who have written this explanation of the Yoga Sturas for her. In all of these pages, they review the practice of yoga for her in all generosity. She has read on the back of the book that they have donated all of the proceeds from this book to the Yoga Studies Institute (YSI).*

She loves how Patanjali begins by saying. “I will…” She sees the whole book and she sees that what he says he “will” do he has done. She has had so many broken promises in her life. She loves that Patanjali, Roach, and McNally did what they set out to do—from start to finish—they kept their word. They are like Miss Ely, her science teacher, who does everything she says she will do. It’s like that and it feels good.

She’s getting sleepy. I see her eyelids fall into long blinks as she holds the book. There is something about hope and faith that help sleep settle into your body. A few minutes later, I see Zuri surrender into her sleep. The book folds into her blankets as she turns on her side.

Good night Zuri.

The Process

Yoga is the path of becoming whole, integrated. There is a science to it, a neuroscience in fact. The International Journal for Yoga Therapy http://www.iayt.org/ officially went on Medline in 2012. You can read and see all that is being documented.

From the web page: “The International Journal of Yoga Therapy (IJYT) is an annual, peer-reviewed journal serving Yoga practitioners, Yoga teachers, Yoga therapists, health professionals, and Yoga researchers. We publish scholarly and research-based submissions related to any tradition or aspect of Yoga Therapy.”

As you practice your yoga—the asanas, the breath work, the meditation (and more)—you will move toward an integrated, a neurologically integrated self. Daniel Siegel, M.D., http://drdansiegel.com/ has written many wonderful books about mindful practices and the changes you will experience in your brain and in your relationships (I use his texts in my university classes here at UB).

What is so compelling for me, is that the Yoga Sutras are so correct. Patanjali speaks to what we now know in fMRI studies and controlled trials to be true. There is so much more to learn and we know so much already. 

Yoga creates integration and integration creates health, mental and physical health.

Practice your yoga and know that peace, sleep, and well-being will find you. It is written in the Sutras and is being document by science.

Namaste!

Catherine

For an overview of the people in Zuri's life go here:
http://theyogabag.blogspot.com/p/zuris-people-overview-of-poeple-is.html

 The Yoga Studies Institute information:



From the web page:

“YSI is a school that teaches how to achieve the ultimate goal of yoga: a life of love, wisdom, authenticity, fulfillment and purpose. YSI courses teach the yogic path as a lifestyle; a complete, daily practice that helps you step into your ultimate self, while honoring your every-day self, and show others how to do the same. YSI trainings are among the few worldwide that reunite the "outer" and "inner" methods of asana, breath awareness, ethical actions, meditation, and wisdom. This powerful synthesis of physical yoga and spiritual understanding is referred to in scriptures as royal yoga or raja yoga and includes all eight limbs described by Master Patanjali, author of the Yoga Sutra. YSI yoga accesses all three bodies of being; gross (physical body) subtle (pranic body), and causal (ultimate body). Each asana class facilitates an experience of these bodies, including safe, expert guidance in physical practice, awareness of and instruction in feeling the subtle or energetic body, and finally dissolution in our ultimate nature. The YSI curriculum sources the oldest known Yogic scriptures, teaching an ancient, authentic lineage that traces back 2,500 years.”

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

When a Piece of Rope is Mistaken for a Snake


When a Piece of Rope is Mistaken for a Snake

Yoga Sutra 1.8: Wrong knowledge is knowledge which is false and not based upon the true nature of its object*

Zuri’s Worry for her Brother Eric

It was Saturday night; Zuri was sleeping soundly, mostly because she was exhausted. She spent her first week at school with her new backpack and studied hard all week. She was beautiful, curled up, cheek on her pillow and it seemed that perhaps she had a tiny smile on her face. Eric, her brother, was home.

Eric had not been home for days and she had convinced herself that he was dead. She didn’t tell anyone. She just carried that around as a constant thought. Early last week, he and her mom almost had an incident. Zuri’s mom had found the yoga bag in Zuri’s room. She held the bag, screamed at Zuri, “Where did this come from?” Zuri stared at her mom. “Zuri! WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?” Zuri cried and with as tiny of a voice that she could muster said, “Eric. Mom, I got it from Eric.” Her mom threw down the bag and went to look for Eric. Zuri grabbed the bag and hid it deep in her closet. Close call.

Zuri had not seen Eric since that day. He heard them and ran out the door. She thought for sure he was dead and it was her fault. She thought that thought all week.

After school on Friday, she dug into the yoga bag and picked up the yoga sutras. She saw all my notes as she leafed through the pages. Her eyes landed on Sutra 1.8, the sutra on wrong knowledge. She read my notes. She saw where I underlined the words, “The classic example given in yoga literature is that of a piece of rope which is mistaken for a snake. In this case, wrong knowledge will cause us to fear the rope and avoid it or try to kill it.”*

Zuri is so bright. I saw her thinking and thinking. “What if?” she thought, “What if Eric is like that rope? What if he is with his friends trying to make mom mad and I am thinking the worst?” She thought more. “I did just what this book is saying. I couldn’t stop thinking about Eric. I couldn’t stop worrying about Eric, so, I sort of killed him. I have been sure he was dead.”

It’s hard for Zuri. She lives in a tough neighborhood. Some kids really have died in accidents or acts of violence. So it is real, her fear. Yet, I know that Eric is at his friend’s house. I know Eric has been going to school. Zuri doesn’t know it, but her efforts and hope inspire Eric to try to do the right thing even though their parents and most of his friends are struggling. He is mad at his mom. Their mom wants him and Zuri to be perfect and she gets full-on drunk every night. Not okay. So, he’s at his friends, to make her mad, and going to school.

He is the rope, just the rope.

Eric came home Friday night and kissed Zuri on the forehead and whispered to her, “I missed you kid.” Her heart was so full she almost burst and tears ran onto her cheeks (quickly wiped). She said, “I love you Eric. I was scared.” He laughed, “Zuri! Girl! You need to relax.”

And so it was that Eric was okay. And so it was that Zuri thinks she might understand a little bit about a rope just being a rope.

The Process

According to Patanjali, the practice of yoga can help individuals become aware of delusion and misperception in their thinking. The practice of yoga, the breath work, the asanas (postures), the meditation, they all contribute to presence of mind. When we are present, we see things as they are. We settle our bodies bringing our nervous system out of a reactive, sympathetic response and into a reflective alert awareness. Here in this bright and clear presence we can see things, even scary things as they are.

I am like this with flying in planes. When I was headed to Africa in July this year. I made that flight (actually three flights there and three flights back, but who is counting?)—so those flights--  into snakes. The reality was that those flights were done thousands and thousands of times with no accidents. The flight, each one, is the rope. I was going on a trip that I will cherish for the rest of my life. And the only way to get there was on a plane. I had to fly.



When we fly, we can make that rope into a snake. Yes we can- BUT- there is another option. We can breathe and reset our intentions. We can be aware of the rope seeming to be a snake. We can commit to seeing the rope as it is. Better yet, we could commit to seeing the beauty of the journey on which we are headed and let all of the snakes go.

Zuri and I know that fear can turn ropes, wondrous journeys, and even brothers into snakes.




I know that yoga and breathwork are effective anecdotes for this fear. I hope Zuri keeps reading because I wrote so many things in those books that can help her. I know this because they have helped me, changed my life really. So, sweet dreams Zuri and keep reading.

Namaste,

Catherine
[PS- this is for Laura]




*Prabhavandanda, S. & Isherwood, C. (1953). How to Know God: The Yoga Aphorisms of Patanjali. London, England: Vedanta Society. 

For an overview of the people in Zuri's life fo here
http://theyogabag.blogspot.com/p/zuris-people-overview-of-poeple-is.html