The Truth About Eating Disorders and Yoga

The Truth About Eating Disorders and Yoga

Catherine Cook-Cottone

The Truth About Eating Disorders and Yoga: that is the title of a recent piece in Yoga Journal. I have been researching eating disorders and yoga interventions for over 10 years (see my research page here http://gse.buffalo.edu/about/directory/faculty/cook-cottone). When I read, what I believe was a well-intentioned article; I was conflicted about it. I was very happy this important topic was brought to light. However, I was also somewhat confused by the content and disheartened (read the article here http://www.yogajournal.com/article/eating-disorders/truth-yoga-eating-disorders/).

I imagined what I might think as a parent of someone who was struggling with an eating disorder or a care provider trying to decide if patients should be encouraged to do yoga or not. From this perspective, I worry that the article might have been discouraging, framing yoga as a risk for patients. Most certainly, the highlighting of a tragic story of parents finding their daughter dead, in a yoga pose, was alarming and I would guess terrifying for parents with a child who is struggling.  For weeks, I have thought about it, reflected on it, and wondered if I should write about it. Many people have commented and blogged about this article. At this point there has been no voice, among the many, representing what is known in the research. I decided to write.

I have spent years in academic study pursuing the truth about yoga and eating disorders. I am careful, cautious, and in serious study. This line of inquiry matters to me for many reasons. I hope that someday we will get close to the truth. I know that finding truth will take years, perhaps decades, and likely careers to discover.

My take on the article by Chelsea Roff (read more about Chelsea Roff here http://www.eatbreathethrive.org/chelsea-roff.html) was that her intentions were good. I have watched her journey across media channels. She most certainly is an inspiration and is doing very important work. I applaud her breakthrough effort to bring attention to the risk some practitioners bring to yoga class. Also, I think her article, critically, calls attention to the importance of watching for practitioners who are struggling. In addition, I hope her article inspires the industry to integrate screening for risk into teaching/studio guidelines, teach a protocol for intervening during our training programs, and encourage studios to have policies related to those at risk. 

The TRUTH is…

My first concern is with the title. As an academic, I am part of a group of individuals who work decade after decade in pursuit of-- what use of the scientific method guides us cautiously toward-- “the truth.” Practice guiding conclusions are made only after a foundation of theory (i.e., theory papers and qualitative studies), exploration of ideas and experiences among individuals (i.e., clinical case studies), pilot studies, controlled trials, randomized controlled trials, replication-- and eventually-- works that aggregate many studies (e.g., systematic literature reviews and meta-analyses). Even then, we speak in terms of “the evidence suggests that___,” or “current research indicates that____,” etc. The word truth holds a scared place. Years of discovery and rediscovery have taught us that, perhaps, we only get glimmers of truths and-- most certainly-- it is only together that we get close. That is, we carefully read and review the work that has been done, honor and cite those who have done the work, and base our current assessments and cautious guidance on what is known- empirically known.

A More Careful Review of the Literature

Given that context, I would argue that we do not know the truth about yoga and eating disorders. Here is what we know- right now. Please note- we don’t know that much at this point.

Early studies were correlational. That means that participants were likely given a survey that asked a lot of questions about yoga, eating disordered behaviors, eating disorder risk factors, etc. Researchers then ran the data to see what went with what. For example, did yoga correlate with lower rates of eating disordered behavior and risk factors?

In an early study, Daubenmier (2005) found this:

• Yoga practice is associated with greater awareness of and responsiveness to bodily sensations, lower self-objectification, greater body satisfaction, and fewer disordered eating attitudes.
• As predicted, yoga practitioners reported more favorably on all measures. Body responsiveness, and, to some extent, body awareness significantly explained group differences in self-objectification, body satisfaction, and disordered eating attitudes.

Some of the research that Roff referred to in her article was done by Neumark‐Sztainer and colleagues. Here are findings from a study published in 2011. This was a survey study that combined yoga and Pilates in one category and analyzed data accordingly. This information is directly from the study:

•  Among study participants, 17.6% (n = 221) of the young women and 5.2% (n = 53) of the young men reported an average of 30 min or more of yoga/Pilates per week.
• Among yoga/Pilates participants, the average time spent in yoga or Pilates was 2.0 h/week (SD = 1.4) for young women and 2.2 h/week (SD= 1.7) for young men.
• Young women who participated in yoga/Pilates were less likely to report body dissatisfaction than nonparticipants (36.1% vs. 51.4%, p < .001).
• The proportions of young women reporting unhealthy weight-control behaviors, extreme weight-control behaviors, and binge eating did not differ significantly by yoga/Pilates participation.
• Men participating in yoga/Pilates were more likely to use extreme weight control behaviors (18.6% vs. 6.8%, p=.006) and binge eating (11.6% vs. 4.2%, p=.023), and marginally more likely to use unhealthy weight control behaviors (49.1% vs. 34.5%; p=.053), than non-participants after adjusting for sociodemographics, weight status, and overall physical activity.

My team became very interested in yoga interventions and eating disorders. Note that the studies I listed above were surveys. In our review we looked at yoga used as an intervention with pre and posttests conducted to see if yoga interventions made things better, worse, or had no effect. [Survey, or correlations studies, do not assess pre and post test findings- so they can’t say if the yoga practice can help explain changes in eating disordered behavior or risk. They can only describe what seemed to go together]. 

Jessalyn Klein and I completed a systematic review and synthesis of the yoga literature. We searched databases for peer-reviewed articles about yoga practice and Eating Disorder symptoms and correlates.  Again- at this point there have been VERY FEW studies completed.

• Of the 14 articles reviewed, 40% used cross-sectional designs to examine risk and protective factors for Eating Disorders among yoga practitioners, and 60% used longitudinal designs to assess the effectiveness of yoga interventions for preventing and treating Eating Disorders.
•  Yoga practitioners were reported to be at decreased risk for Eating Disorders, and Eating Disorder risk and symptoms were reduced or unchanged after yoga interventions.
•  Conclusions: More well-controlled studies are needed to understand whether the positive effects of yoga on ED symptoms and correlates are related to the type of yoga practiced, the amount/frequency of practice, and/or other variables.
• See the article here: http://yogaclub.us/attachments/Yoga%20as%20Medicine%20-%20Effects%20of%20Yoga%20on%20Eating%20Disorders.pdf

Using Yoga Against Yourself

Perhaps, this is what was Chelsea Roff was talking about? I am very happy that her article brought attention to this often negected risk that is inherent in embodied practices. Like others before me (e.g., Dittmann, & Freedman, 2009), in my forthcoming book, “Mindfulness and Yoga for Embodied Self-Regulation: A Primer for Clinicians” (see Springer Publishing, 2015) I address this issue.

I tell the story of Mathew Sanford (2006), author of the deeply moving and inspiring book “Waking: A Memoir of Trauma and Transcendence.” Sanford articulately describes the moment he had taken his self-destructive struggle onto his yoga mat. After a traumatic injury, yoga was Sanford’s pathway to healing. However, for a while, he used this healing tool against himself. He notes, “I know the moment my yoga practice passed over into the threshold into violence” (Sanford, 2006; p. 203). Practicing with a spinal chord injury that left him paralyzed, Mathew describes pushing and straining so hard in a pose that he broke his own leg. The injury was complicated as was his recovery from it. Sanford (2006) states, “Breaking my leg was the harshest lesson that I have ever experienced in yoga. For me, nonviolence is no longer an intellectual platitude within my practice. It is an energetic fact” (p. 213).  

I believe this turning of yoga into a self-destructive act is what Chelsea Roff was describing in her tragic story of a death of one yoga practitioner, who also apparently suffered from a clinical level eating disorder. Like any other practice, yoga can be misused and turned against the self. It is this notion that I think was the spirit of Roff’s piece.

I agree that this can happen and I am concerned that yoga teachers are often not prepared to identify, assess, set limits, and refer. Yes. We need to integrate warning signs, screening tools, and how to confront and refer someone who is struggling into yoga teacher training. However, it is my belief that this is the exception and not the rule. Research to date supports this contention. That is, although some people who are already struggling with clinical levels of risk or struggle may misuse yoga as a self-destructive tool, many may benefit from the practice. It also seems that for some, depending on various factors (dosage of yoga, style, etc..), yoga may have no effects. I also believe there are factors present in some yoga communities (note- not the yoga- the community) that trigger risk. Although, this has yet to be effectively researched.

So What is the Truth about Yoga and Eating Disorders?

I don’t think we know. It may be that some people who are struggling are drawn to the practice (see Neumark‐Sztainer et al., 2011). That makes sense to me. Those who have eating disorders find challenge in the mind body connection. Yoga lives in that connection.

Overall, it looks—somewhat—cautiously-- promising. That is, there is some evidence that yoga may help. We are not sure what about the yoga practice helps, what type of practice helps, and what aspects of the practice are important to include (e.g., breath work, asana, meditation). There is—honestly-- more that we don’t know, than we know.

I have seen tremendous growth in my own life and in the lives of others manifest through the practice of yoga. I have researched a yoga intervention as a prevention tool for eating disorders. I have done pilot work using a yoga intervention as an adjunct treatment for eating disorders. I continue this work today. I want to know if it works, why it works, how it works, and how might it work best. I most certainly want to know what might cause harm, who might be at-risk in yoga class, and what might place people at risk. I have seen yoga studio cultures that promote the thin-deal, encourage fasting, and hire and maintain dangerously thin teachers. Note- as I mentioned above-  these are yoga studio variables and not yoga. As the body of research grows, it is my hope and intention that studio features and variables will be de-coupled from the 8-limb practice of yoga. And that both will be the focus of research going forward.

So, yeah- for at least right now- I don’t think we quite know the truth about yoga.

So, what can you do now?

I have a short list here for guidance. Do these things for a healthy, body positive yoga; prevention of eating disorder risk; and referral for those who are struggling:

1.  Let yoga be about yoga. The yoga scriptures do not speak about weight loss and body sculpting as a pathway to enlightenment. Teach yoga, not self-judgment. 
2. Create and maintain a body positive culture. Teach yoga that brings awareness to the body and honors the body. All shapes, sizes, abilities, ages, ranges of flexibility, and levels of strength belong—as students and teachers—we all belong.
3.  See http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/types-symptoms-eating-disorders  and http://www.eatingdisorderfoundation.org/EatingDisorders.htm for signs and symptoms of eating disorders.
4.  If you see someone at risk and you do not know what to do, get help. Contact a local eating disorder specialist and ask for guidance.
5.  See http://www.eat-26.com for an eating disorder screening tool.
6. Eat well, maintain a healthy weight, and get help when you need help. A yoga teacher with an eating disorder (even if you are keeping it a secret) is creating risk in his or her community. Take a break from teaching and get help for yourself.
7.  Be careful with food cleanses, fasting, juicing, and eating guidance. Work with a nutritionist who has familiarity with eating disorder behavior. Do not guide people on topics outside of your expertise.
8.  Privately, consult with any students you believe may be at risk. If necessary, require a student who is presenting dangerous behavior or appears to be at-risk to get help before you allow them to continue to attend classes. See “How to Help Someone with an Eating Disorder” at http://anad.org/wp-content/uploads/2010/11/How-to-Help5.pdf
9. Follow the research. We all have access to Google scholar. Use it. National and international eating disorder organizations also provide research updates- see links ANAD, NEDA, and Something Fishy. 
10. Yoga training programs should include warning signs for mental health issues, risk assessment, guidelines for intervening, and practice in confronting struggling students safely and compassionately.

References and Additional Readings:

Dittmann, K. A., & Freedman, M. R. (2009). Body awareness, eating attitudes, and spiritual beliefs of women practicing yoga. Eating Disorders, 17(4), 273-292.

Douglass, L. (2009). Yoga as an intervention in the treatment of eating disorders: does it help?. Eating Disorders, 17(2), 126-139.

Daubenmier, J. J. (2005). The Relationship of Yoga, Body Awareness, and Body Responsiveness to Self‐Objectification and Disordered Eating. Psychology of Women Quarterly, 29(2), 207-219.

Klein, J., & Cook-Cottone, C. (2013). The Effects of Yoga on Eating Disorder Symptoms and Correlates: A Review. International journal of yoga therapy, 2(2), 41-50.

Neumark‐Sztainer, D., Eisenberg, M. E., Wall, M., & Loth, K. A. (2011). Yoga and pilates: Associations with body image and disordered‐eating behaviors in a population‐based sample of young adults. International Journal of Eating Disorders, 44(3), 276-280.

Make Yourself Uncomfortable Once a Day

Make Yourself Uncomfortable Once a Day

Even though I am a grown-up and all that, I still like to have long talks with my Dad about life. We were talking Wednesday morning about what it takes to have a good life. He told me that he makes himself uncomfortable at least once a day.

It’s funny how you can be so similar to someone in very powerful ways and not know it. I explained to my Dad that I do the same thing- and I think that makes all of the difference.

I have come to realize that what has allowed me to achieve my goals occurs in a moment. There is a moment- a critical moment- when you decide…

When I am working on something- a book, a run, a yoga posture- a moment occurs when I think, “I am done. This is hard.” It is in that moment that I tell myself, “Catherine, this is the moment when most people quit. This is the moment that separates the people who get things done from those who don’t. Truth- this is the moment that will define you as the Catherine who achieves her goals or the Catherine that wishes she had.”

I often pause here and breathe. I honor the moment for what it is- life changing.

Then, I make myself uncomfortable. When running, I go the extra mile. In yoga, I breathe five more breaths. When writing-- I persist- maybe for an hour, maybe for two.

In a week of these moments, I have anywhere from 7 to 14 hours. In a year, that is 364 to 728 hours--or what math tells me is 15 to 30, 24-hour days. Do you get that? In a year- I have given myself 2 weeks to a full month dedicated solely to my dreams.

Trust me. I take breaks and enjoy life. I eat pizza, watch movies, and kick my feet up. Yes. I do that. However, I do that after I persist. It is then- that the breaks are all the sweeter. They are not clouded by unlived dreams or lost goals. They are clear spaces of rest and restoration. They feel good- full and wholesome.

What could happen for you, if just once a day, you made yourself uncomfortable? What would you do with the minutes, breaths, or hour?

Try it. Do it.

Your dreams are worth it.

And do not worry, I promise the TV shows you are not watching are recorded by someone, somewhere. And they will be all the sweeter after you persist.

Namaste, 

Catherine 

What if I Fail? ……Worse yet, What if I am Happy?

What if I Fail? ……Worse yet, What if I am Happy?

Catherine Cook-Cottone, The Yoga Bag

“What if I fail?” For some reason, this is the question that comes to mind when I set any positive or healthy goal. I have a bias. You see, I never worry about failing at going to bed too late, drinking wine, complaining, overworking, overthinking, obsessively checking my email, or being afraid. For some reason, these things seem to hold steady like gravity, ready to manifest in my life whenever I drop my guard.

“What if I forget to stay up to late? What if I don’t have the persistence for another glass of wine?  What if I forget to be afraid?”

No, interestingly, I never worry about stuff like that.

My fear shows up in a different way. It’s sneaky and hides under the pretense of  “What if I fail?” When I am honest with myself, I know that fear-of-failure is a cover story.

Recently, I realized that there were 108 days until the New Years. In a flash, I had an idea. I have been feeling badly about losing my inertia for last year’s New Year’s resolution. In the past few months, I watched my commitment to meditate at least 5 minutes a day slowly fade away. The 108-days-to-New-Year was my chance to get it right. I asked, “How wonderful would it be to start meditating now and meditate all the way to the New Year?” I answered, “Very wonderful indeed!” So, I set a goal, put it in my countdown application on my phone, rallied people of Facebook to join me……and then the voice, “What if I fail?”

If these thoughts were a one-time-deal, it would not be so bad. Sadly, it seems that when I set my sights on any healthy goal, I fear failure almost more than I actually pursue the goal. Then, when I do fail-- I feel a deep sense of resignation, “You, see Catherine, I knew you’d fail.”

Don’t get me wrong; I have successfully completed many things. Which begs the questions, “What is going on when I commit to self care? Why fail here?”

I have heard it explained all of theses ways:

1.     You are afraid what other people might think if you fail.

2.     You think it means you are not capable if you fail.

3.     Humans hate change.

4.     Bad habits die hard.

5.     More things like that….

None of these land for me. It is not my fear of judgment, fear of change, or a habit. It is something else.

When I dig deep and shine the light, I think I am actually afraid that I WON’T FAIL. I am afraid I will accomplish the goal. I will meditate (or whatever other healthy thing I do), reap the benefits and……..be happier.

Yeah, I think I am afraid of being happy.

I know.

It’s weird.

My mom used to be afraid to be happy.

She said that once you are happy, you have something to lose. In this way, sad is sort of safe. Do you think that maybe she was on to something? Perhaps our clinging to the mediocre, the comfortable, and the mind-numbing drone of half conscious living is all probably some sophisticated protective mechanism?

You see, if I continue with this meditating thing, I run a very high risk of becoming more conscious. If I become more conscious, I run a very high risk of seeing more and more reality and feeling more and more feelings. If I see more reality and feel more feelings, I might love, really love, the people in my life. If I love the people in my life, ugh- yeah- I might be happy, really happy- and now I have a lot to lose.

So, it is way better to stay in my endless cycle of starting to meditate and quitting and starting and quitting and hating myself for quitting and starting and quitting. Yeah- that is a way better life. Super safe and sort of sad—good old trustworthy, familiar, going nowhere- sad.

Hmmmmmm? I am reminded of something that I tell my kids when I make them put on their seatbelts in the car, “Safe is more important than happy.”

Maybe- things that are true for seatbelts aren’t true for everything?

Maybe sometimes- Happy is more important than safe.

This time I am going to risk it. I am going to stick with my plan. I am going to meditate for 108 days. I am going to become more conscious. See more reality. Be more present. Feel more feelings. And Love more of the amazing people in my life with a big, conscious, open heart- even if it scares the hell out of me.

Yep, I am going to be happy, that terrifying and beautiful happy.

Watch for my smile on New Years. It will be 108 days big.

Namaste,

Catherine

The Yoga Bag

             

108 Days of Meditation to the New Year- Guidelines

Here are the guidelines 108 Days of Meditation to the New Year:

          1. In the next 108 days you commit to meditating for 5 minutes or more a day (9/14/14).

          2. You can meditate in ANY WAY (e.g., sitting, walking, etc…)

          3. If you miss a day- (a) add a minute(s) to days for the rest of the week or (b) do a secret act of kindness for someone else. It will get your karma back. Rules are- you can’t tell anyone you did it- it is a secret act of kindness- solely for the good of it.

I am excited! I will send updates etc.. on Facebook. Also, will post on my blog The Yoga Bag and on the Facebook group page Meditation in the Bag.

Last, we are working on a workshop that includes cool things like yoga and mala beads….I will keep you posted!

Happy mindfulness!

Catherine

How to Meditate: 5 Simple Steps

·      (1) Find a comfortable spot. This can be seated or walking.

·      (2) Choose a timer or meditation timing app.

·      (3) Decide if you would like to meditate on the three Dharma   Seals (i.e., impermanence, suffering, and not-self) or on an object.

o   If you select meditation on an object- set your timer and begin to focus on your object (e.g., candle, breath, mantra). As you notice your attention waver, with loving-kindness, bring it back to your object.

o   If you select the Dharma Seals, set your timer and notice your thoughts. One, observe that all things arise and pass away. Two, notice that life is inevitably painful and our reaction to life’s challenges is what adds suffering to pain. Three, notice that all of your thoughts, reactions, and ruminations are not you- you are more than that. You are the sum total of your choices.

·      (4) Ultimately you will notice that two things happen: (a) there are mental events (stimuli that enter through your cognitive self- thoughts, memories, and old feelings) and sense impressions (stimuli that enter through your senses- physiological self); and (b) your brain automatically labels stimuli (mental events and sense impressions) as pleasant, neutral or unpleasant.

·      (5) You then have a choice. You can return to presence and focus on your object or the Dharma Seals- or you can continue with the rumination (i.e., thinking, sensing, judging, thinking, sensing, judging, thinking, sensing, judging---- suffering).

That is essentially it.

There are more details and methods- of course.

Meditation is an opportunity to learn your reactions, limitations, and tendencies. Knowledge is power. So, meditation is empowering. Awareness opens the door to choice and practice gives us strength. Awareness, choice, and strength lead to growth.

Happy meditation and growth : ),

Catherine Cook-Cottone

The Yoga Bag

The 12 Embodied Practices of the Yogic and Mindful Self (Cook-Cottone, 2014)

The 12 Embodied Practices of the Yogic and Mindful Self 

Cook-Cottone, 2014   

These are the 12 practices detailed in my forthcoming book, "Mindfulness and Yoga for Self-Regulation: A  Primer for Mental Health Professionals." I have compiled all of the practices detailed in no less than 30 books. These- are- the- things- if you do these 12 things- you will experience attunement and contentment. I have the word of many mindful and yogic scholars and practitioners as well as a bunch of  established and emerging research. I am so excited about this list. If you'd like to re-print please cite. The book should be out 2015. 

Practice 1: Be Mindfully Aware

Practice 2: Honor Your Breath and Physical Experience

Practice 3: Live in Inquiry

Practice 4: Accept Impermanence

Practice 5: Cultivate Non-attachment 

Practice 6: Discern What is Not Self

Practice 7: Allow What Is with Non-judgement

Practice 8: Prioritize Self-Care

Practice 9: Be of Your Values

Practice 10:  Observe Compassion for Self and Others

Practice 11: Maintain Equanimity

Practice 12: Cultivate Joy and Loving Kindness

Figure 2.1 Twelve Embodied Practices of the Yogic and Mindful Self

To Cite words and image:

Cook-Cottone, C. P. (in press). Mindfulness and Yoga for Self-Regulation: A Primer for Mental Health Professionals. New York, NY: Springer. 

Trauma Informed Mind Body Yoga: TIMBo Training- Foundations

Trauma Informed Mind Body Yoga:

TIMBo Training- Foundations

I just finished the Foundations section of the TIMBo Training. http://yogahope.org/timbo-program/

What is TIMBo?

This is what is says on their web page:

“The Trauma Informed Mind Body (TIMBo) program is designed to help women understand how and why their bodies feel the way they do, notice their emotion sensations non-judgmentally, and helps them take effective action in regulating the difficult sensations, making them less likely to turn to drugs, alcohol and destructive behaviors to cope.

The TIMBo program addresses three primary objectives:

1. Give women simple, effective and accessible tools to utilize as active coping strategies for self-regulation. These tools can be used anywhere, anytime and take just minutes to utilize.

2. Help women gain awareness of their bodies and their body sensations. Emotional traumatic memory becomes lodged in the body and is triggered in an endless feedback loop that becomes chronic and debilitating in many.

3. The long-term objective is to help women renegotiate their self-belief through an awareness of their inner experience, and begin the process of transformation.

Women begin using self-regulation and mindfulness tools after the very first class and their sense of empowerment is felt right away. Each session builds on the previous one, giving women the opportunity to notice the effectiveness of these tools on the spot. Group sharing allows women to share their discoveries and validate one another in making empowering choices.

TIMBo has been designed with the specific needs of women in mind and more strategically addresses the effect that early childhood stress and trauma have on the body and the mind. The TIMBo program provides teachers with a structured curriculum of 16 sessions that leaves students with tools to address their habituated patterns and symptoms that lead to recidivism, relapse, and entrapment in the cycle of trauma, addiction, incarceration and other health risk behaviors.”

This is what it meant for me-

The Process:

"Between stimulus and response there is a space.

In that space is our

power to choose our response.

In our response lies our growth and our

freedom."

Viktor Frankl

That- is my favorite quote. Why? Because I lived in the existence between stimulus and response for ages. No. let me say that clearly. I was only stimulus response. It has taken me years to cultivate the space between the two-- and yoga has been a huge part of that shift.

On my mat, I have been able to construct the space between what was going on in two places: (a) my head, and (b) my body--- and then the critical space between those two places and my choices. Both my mind and body were experienced as stressful and bad. There was little positive input- unless there was a substance, self-destructive behavior, or avoidance involved and then- well then- things were fine- 

-and they were not fine, they were not okay and I was not okay.

Yeah, if you asked me I would say, “I am fine, good really, yeah good. Its just that……” What followed-- it is just that … [fill in the blank- with what everyone else was doing to make me miserable].  And IF ONLY, if only, if only THEY would…. “Yeah, I am fine.”

Enter yoga. And I start to get it. I start to get it that there are more options. There is something else, something more than stimulus and reaction. Something more than stimulus- substance/symptoms- reaction.

What was it?

Presence. Beautiful, huge, fragile, strong, crazy presence.

I practiced yoga. I practiced presence.

Nan Herron, a dear friend and pursuer of all that is good and world changing, told me about TIMBo. She said, “This stuff is great. You will love it. This is the thing. You need…. NO, REALLY.. YOU NEED TO DO THIS.” So, I did.

And, so I did.

I am sitting here in the airport. Raw, renewed, deconstructed, and reconstructed, and wiped clear, from four days of pure, distilled presence.

Potent shit. Raw with truth and abundant with unconditional positive regard. A crucible for change- a human crucible for change.

I don’t want to share too much, so much that I dilute it.

Know that if you choose to go there- to your true self- you will leave transformed. Transformed into you as you were intended to be- no cookie cutter, no pretense, no expectations-

-just you and your true nature.

Zuri’s Story (See this blog for more about Zuri and who she is)

Zuri is sitting on her bed. It’s June. School is practically over.

This is bad.

Summer is bad. No structure. No teachers. Just Jasmine’s cancer and Zuri’s mom- and for her mom- drinking is worse in the summer- way worse. And for Zuri’s brother- Eric- risks, real risks, are worse in the summer- way worse.

When the sun starts shining, Zuri’s worries escalate. Her shoulders move toward her ears. Her jaw clenches. Her breath gets shallow. Her back tightens. For as long as she can remember, she curls into her defensive self because you never really know what will happen.

She is also sad because there won’t be any yoga. Miss Amanda takes the summer off and goes to yoga training and sees her family. Zuri will miss her horribly. Miss Amanda and Yoga have taught her these three things that no one seems to know in her family (see http://yogahope.org/timbo-program/ for more on these three things):

1.  Active coping tools for self-regulation.

2. Awareness of her body and body sensations.

3. A belief in herself as a strong and competent young woman-- a self-belief through an awareness of her inner experience.

When Zuri goes to yoga, she is reminded to be present and breathe. She practices connections with Miss Amanda and the other kids who are practicing. When Zuri goes to yoga she feels what she is feeling- the physical, the emotional, and the longing- pure and clear for what it is—and then she breathes into it- not meeting it with drugs, clinging to boys, or drinking—she meets her longing with breath and acceptance. And the miracle of that- is a growing belief in herself as someone who can handle stuff- she can handle her fears about her mom’s drinking and driving, her brother’s drug use and scary behavior- she can handle missing Miss Amanda- she doesn’t like it- no. Shit no. But she is strong enough.

Laying on her bed with her journal- she starts to sketch out some plans for the summer. She was thinking that maybe she might ask the minister at the church if she could teach a little yoga at the church to the kids in day camp. Miss Amanda has been telling her that she would be an inspiring teacher, maybe it would be okay if she shared what she knows with some of the little ones at camp?

She suddenly felt safe. It was the strangest thing. When she started thinking about summer, about yoga, and Miss Amanda- and not being connected all summer, she was scared. As she thought about teaching yoga, it felt like Miss Amanda’s sureness and support moved from outside of her heart, right into her chest. The yoga shifted too. It felt like it wasn’t something at school, or after school, but something in her body- something that was part of her that she could share. Ah- this feels good!

Image from http://nataliefishwick.co.uk/some-faqs/ 

And so it would be. Zuri’s summer job was to teach yoga to the beautiful little souls at summer school. And with a heart full of yoga and hope she will share these three things

(see http://yogahope.org/timbo-program/ for more on these three things):

1.  Active coping tools for self-regulation.

2. Awareness of body and body sensations.

3. A belief in the self as a strong and competent being-- a self-belief through an awareness of inner experience.

There are going to be some happy kids at camp this summer….

Namaste,

Catherine Cook-Cottone

http://www.catherinecookcottone.com

If you want to learn more about TIMBo, YogaHope, and the founder- Sue Jones click here: http://yogahope.org/about/yogahopes-creation/

* Note* It has been a while since I posted. It will be this way for some time (Until early Fall, 2014). I have an approaching deadline for my embodied self-regulation book. It is my plan to post once a month or so, until the book is submitted. OR If feel really compelled to post- which is the case today. Send me lots of book writing energy!